Recognizing and holding the two aspects of reality
One does not and cannot exist without the other
THE DUALITY
Within & Without
THE DARK
DEATH
CLOSURE AND COMPLETION
A deep dive in the dark
into pains of today, going back into to the past,
into the origins
feeling the hurt in our hearts
sitting with sorrows and grief
allowing ourselves to fully feel
all that was left unhealed
healing
becoming whole
shattering self concepts and identities
questioning beliefs, bringing our minds back to truth
Seeing, hearing, feeling all that is hidden in the dark
revealing truths to ourselves
THE LIGHT
REBIRTH
CREATION AND EXPRESSION
Stepping into the light
the truest expression of the self
recognizing, reclaiming and fully owning your gifts,
your genius
dreaming, creating, being
sharing it with the world
coming back to your true deep desires
feeling the yearning of your soul
the pulse of life flowing through you
living in your power
authentically
fulfilling your destiny
experiencing joy, bliss and peace
living in beauty, pleasure and ease
A cyclical journey, a spiral path
dark to light, light to dark
In accepting and integrating the denied, rejected and disowned aspects of the self, both the light and the dark. We become our true, authentic and whole selves.
It is to see the light you don't own and the shadows you avoid. It is to see not beyond but through the beliefs, limitations, stories and illusions. By questioning all you believe to be true. It is to feel all that has not been felt. To know what is yet unknown.
And all of this starts with what is here, what is present. It all begins from the emotions, the feelings, the thoughts. Right from the surface. Creating a place of safety within where you can be in complete acceptance of yourself. By allowing, seeing and hearing all disowned and forgotten aspects of your being.
A journey through the mazes of the mind and the ways of the heart. To be in the balance within and without. From inner healing to outer responsibilities. From vulnerabilities to boundaries. From oneness to a sense of self. From rest to action.
And if you're feeling stuck, overwhelmed by your thoughts or your emotions. Feeling trapped in the pain or the misery of being as you are. Alone, isolated, just waiting for the pain to end. Not knowing what to do to help yourself. Know that you are not alone going through that. I and many others have been in that and continue to go through that in seasons and cycles.
THE NEED FOR COMMUNITY
It is a walk unto a path, unknown and dark,
collecting pieces of truths as you are
but we must recognize the pain that comes with that
and the isolation that imparts
It is not about just waiting to reach some destination, it isn't about reaching an end goal
there isn't a place where it will all cease to be
there isn't a place where pain won't come and knock on your door, pay you a visit,
there is no hiding, no running from this
Praying, wishing a life that isn't yours
waiting for it all to disappear
hoping for someone to find you and save you from the hell you're living
and in that wishing, days pass and nights fall,
withering away in agony and despair
feeling alone, hopeless and helpless
just wanting it to end
and you think to yourself - this is the torture they call evolution, the process of becoming your highest self
there is a cost to that
it's celebrated, the part of you finding yourself
by yourself and others
but always reducing the pain that is felt,
in the process
the shedding nobody witnesses
the turmoil no one sees
the fights within, the wars lost and won
all they want is to see me ok and happy
oh yes, the wisdom is great
but please keep the mess away
there's an ugly side, an unpleasant site
a site unwanted, rejected by society
being broken open, the sensitivity to all that is
not fitting in, exclusion from a world you knew to be
too vulnerable, like a snail without a shell
For the ones going through this. What is needed is to recognize your journey. To be able to see a reflection of yourself, to know where you are, how you are, who you are, as you are.
A community is what is needed. Where people on this path can come together. Share, express, witness, receive and know that they are not alone. That is what gives the strength to carry on. The community can be a mirror where true reflections can be seen through true expressions. A place of resonance, a place of relief. And this is that place for me. I welcome you and invite you to join me.
An
antidote
ART
CREATING EXPRESSING
SHARING
a practice for healing,
giving a voice to what is,
naming what is and allowing it to carry us to wherever it pleases
Write, speak, talk, sing, dance, scream, cry, shake, complain, stomp on the ground or make a shape. Do whatever calls. Let the energy flow. Let it come into a form. Be with what is, let the truth be seen. This can set you free.
The practice
Stepping into the inner world.
Allowing, accepting and being with what is here within.
When lost in the deep valleys of the mind,
caught in pain, crushed by fear and seeing no way out
Wanting to run away
Looking on the outside to take me away from this for someone to show me the way out of this
This, which is what I am feeling
In praying for saving
I remember all I need to do is be with what is
to not run away but to let myself breathe
to not resist but to go into what I feel
to sit in that discomfort
the lack of ease
to dare to be in my body, rather then away
scared of my own feelings
scared to feel what I feel
but it's a practice
to be good to myself
to let the energy take charge in it's full form
being the space that I am
giving room and creating safety for the unconscious to come through
to see all that is happening inside of me
to feel the pain I feel that I want to avoid
It's a practice
to learn to be with myself
to allow the pain and all emotions, no matter the name
so it can all show me my internal reality
It's a practice
to learn to be with myself
It's a practice
