'I just want to be myself'

'I just want to be myself,' says the cry from the heart.

Can you be anything else but who you are?

yes, I can be dull

dead on the inside

I can live this life not being myself

what does that mean,

to be or not to be

oneself?

to not express

your colours and sounds

to silent your voice

to be far away from my your truth

from your true essence

from all that is you

to be bottled up

and buried under the sand

or under the sea

this is all philosophy

what does it actually mean to not be oneself?

it is to be lost in thought

the thoughts of who you are

looking for moulds that fit

your form

it is to live from the mind

trying to be

like you already are not

trying to exist

the body is there but the soul lost

it's a way of being small

because you can't handle the bigness that you are

vast

uncharted

in fear

your worth falls out of your hands

so you pull back

erasing your own foot marks

like you were never here

never seen, never heard

under the covers of life

you hide

becoming unknown, even to yourself

because it was too hard to see your own light

in the darkness that exists inside

there was too much in the way

but nothing at all

it was just me

standing there

unwilling

unsure

scared to be

free

to be,

to be seen

'I just want to be myself'

well who is stopping you

get out of your head

and be the witness to who is called yash

let her unravel

let her undress

let her be

don't be in the way

don't put a lease in her neck

chocking her

let her be free

let her be wild

let her run naked

be her protector

but not by caging her

let her dance

and let her sing

let her make mistakes

let her fall

and get bruises

maybe some pain

be there

loving her

so she can live a full life

free her from the chains

tied to the ground

be her ground

and let her dance in the rain

let her splatter mud all over her face

set her free

set her free

you don't get to decide

who she is and who she will be

she already is

let her be seen

let the miracle unfold

let go of the reins

holding so tight

onto life

stop trying

just live

she is not the one to follow your agendas

let her joy take you on a ride

it is a path unknown

a mystery

life wants to live through her

and you don't get to see where it is all leading

where it is taking you

let her take the lead

she lives in the heart

anytime you feel lost

go knock on her door

the door to your true self is your heart

where will the money come from

what should I do?

what is logical

what makes sense

let's make a plan

this takes away the life force

away from you

just follow her who lives in the heart

and yes I know it is the hardest thing to do

but practice it, until it becomes you

faith so strong

anchored in truth

so that the grip of the mind is loose

and light takes up the room

within every aspect of you

a home for love

a home for god

a home for all things good, whole and pure

You can dim the light and you can hide

you can look away and you can deny

in fear

you can get lost in the mind

only when you are disconnected from your heart

you crave to see yourself

and to be seen in that

that which you already are

beautiful

a creation of the stars

let yourself be expressed fully

like a river

you are meant to flow

to change form

to be in rapids

fall down streams

to slowdown

and stay still

under the shade of a tree

you are a blessing

a beauty in expression

a poem

a song

life called by the name yashmeen

I just want to be myself

to live fully and to be seen in that.