Nothing to give

When you feel like you have nothing to give.

In a deficit. Like you are completely empty.

Containing nothing but the breath that just keeps on flowing,

in and out.

That's it. That's all you got.

Everything feels like nothing

including me

this state of being

I can't see, I can't hear anything

nothing real anyways

what worked to take me away from this

doesn't work anymore

no distraction is worth the cause

I want nothing but the truth now

I am over all of it

the mind can't dictate me

so I am free

yet I don't know who I am to be

because right now

I feel like nothing

no identity

I feel so close yet so far from home

the true home that hasn't become the permanent home in me

so I am here

not doing anything

until I hear the bells and whistles calling me

until I am led

by my true destiny

I will sit in this discomfort

of really not knowing anything

and that really means, not knowing me

I let go of everything that is not my deepest truest calling

the yearning

of my heart and my soul

I let go of everything that keeps me 'busy'

No action can be or will be taken

until it is the rightest thing for me.

And so it is

so it is

so it is.