The only worthwhile cause

What makes a life worth living?

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To go after what you want, exactly how you want it, to make your desires a living reality. To go for what you want is the only worthwhile cause. The compromises, the settling, to accept something that does not match your heart's true desires is a crime you commit against yourself. Telling yourself, 'that's all I can have with what I have.' Or 'this is all that is available to me.' Limiting yourself, your life and denying yourself the joy of having things exactly how you want them. Letting go of and disregarding your preferences like they don't matter is way to create and experience a life that you resent. A life of bitterness, a life of anger against your own self but then blaming it on god and on life.

You cannot ever let go of your dreams, your wishes, your visions, your deep desires that spark true joy within your heart, body and soul. That awaken you, that ignite life within you. That make you feel more and more like you. That feel like your truth to you.

To deny yourself your particular pleasures and your unique preferences, your likes/dislikes is an act against oneself. And it is a conditioned response. If it is not a fully body yes, if there's hesitation, if there's a need for justification, explanation and a need for logic to convince yourself to be okay something. It is an act of denying yourself your truth and in turn, your happiness. It is a step towards a life that will feel so bad that after a series of decisions like this, death will feel like relief than the life you have created for yourself.

You will walk around with misery in your heart and without knowing why. Without one particular thing to go back to. It can become a way of life, a way of thinking, a way of living life. A way of denying life.

And even in the short run, while you are living that experience chosen from fear, lack or limitedness. A compromise of some kind. It will feel like deep disappointment and causing an inner disturbance, that will make you toss and turn. A feeling you can't shake. A feeling so unsettling causing anxiety Where at every turn you'll look for escapes and resent anyone or anything that you chose out of distress.

If it's not what you want, it is not worth it. It is not worthwhile to have something, just to have it. It will be an experience of no pleasure, no satisfaction. It will show you the price you must pay when you make yourself small, accepting things that aren't exactly what you want.

There's a price we must pay for betraying ourselves. For not going for what we truly want. And it is chronic unpleasantness to begin and a life that will end up feeling life hell.

Hence, the only worthwhile cause is to go for what we want. Even if it seems lifetimes afar, a distance seeming too large in between where you are and what you want. Even a step in that direction will add to yourself, you will be able to look at yourself. Even if it's hard, the way to going towards all that you want. Even if it would take a lifetime to get there, being on it's way would even be enough to live a life that would feel good. A life that would feel like it was worth it when it's time of your last breath.

The only worthwhile cause is to go for what you want.